All Saints on Margaret Street was, up until a few weeks ago, just another charming and enchanted building I would walk past in London. It is a few feet away from my apartment, opposite a Buddhist Temple, with imposing towers adorned with the Cross. This should be reason enough to use it as shelter when a hurricane hits you. I remember the first time I walked into this old, stone building that looked as heavy as it was. Hallowed ground comes with it’s baggage – not a bad thing in this case.
Its ornate and gilded interior providing the perfect refuge for someone seeking divine intervention. It’s often typical to think of a higher power after an evidently PTSD inducing experience. I remember looking at the giant arch above me – Alpha and Omega adorning its opposing sides. It was 6:35pm on Wednesday, the 21st of June, a scorching day. My shirt was drenched in sweat, my eyes were red with tears. I’m not ashamed to admit it.
I interrupted the typical Low Mass ceremony that takes place at 6:30pm everyday except on Sundays (5:15pm). There were three other people standing in silence facing Father Alan Moses. He looked at me, and said sternly,
“Son, if you’re here to pray, kneel before the Lord, find a seat, and confess your sins.”
For the first time, in ages, I cannot even recall how long it’s been, I bent a knee.
There was a power to the act of kneeling, a foregoing of our human stiffness. Let me clarify something here, I am not saying that I am a born again Christian or a man of the cloth – as always I am respectful and in awe of all faiths, of the strength of belief, of the humility of giving yourself to something greater. I am in awe of Iman.
I rose and took a seat, the first seat on the third row to the right as Father Moses continued,
“May all those who truly repent be forgiven for their sins.”
A little while into Mass, we were all called to receive Communion – non-Baptized folk could receive a blessing. As you would suspect, I went up and asked for one – something I now do every day.
“May the Lord bless you and all the angels pray for you.”
I knelt back down, feeling the power of something greater than me. Perhaps it was a heightened state of emotional reception or perception, perhaps it was the hurricane, but in kneeling, for the slightest moment, I found a sliver of peace.
I now go to All Saints every morning, and kneel in front of that gilded arch. I don’t say any prayer, I don’t recite any scripture, I just kneel and imagine a hand on my head –
“May the Lord bless you and all the angels pray for you.”
Amen.
Hey V! I I realize we haven’t talked in years, but I just want to say that I love reading your posts. They’re beautiful and so well articulated. I love that you probe what it means to be human and keep faith. Keep them coming please!
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Aww thanks a lot Shruthi! Let’s catch up sometime soon?
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Yes, let’s please. Skype or Facetime maybe? Let me know what works best – I’m living in Pittsburgh, PA now (of all places…).
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I’m in London! Happy to FaceTime this weekend if you’re free!
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Sounds good! I just messaged you my number / apple ID.
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